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im SWEARING to myself not to bite or pick my nails. actually has been a problem for yrs for me (not since i was a baby tho?) ive considered buying mits or something bc i just cant stop myself............ i already know stinky nail polish wont work idk like rehab level help i need
soo i spent 3$ on fake nails to stop myself. that was yesterday and... i didnt bite my nails at all yesterday
today ive stopped myself like 3 times now but its actually working i dont just swallow my guilt!
i usually do it when im bored or watching or reading something, not while im typing like this, so putting silly putty in my hands solves that. plus its stinky in a different way than the weird nail polish, i just dont want it near my mouth after ive played with it, so..? bonus
my nails arent actually long enough to even put a sliver of nail polish on and definetly not fake nails. theyll be arriving in errr a week or 2, so hopefully thatll be long enough... if not ill wait not waste
and also my cuticles r soooo so so long and overgrown my mom told me her artist would gasp at my fingers im a walking crime i guess

i think small steps like these are helping me take better care of myself... theres nothing wrong with having short nails at all or not wanting to get them done, but im a little worried about my teeth health over it, plus it makes them stink (brushing my teeth is another habit i need to work on), and generally really germ-y and just a bad habit. i pick them til theyre bleeding aching and stinging, i dont want that honestly!!!!!!

ive also always wanted long nails but im always told no as i grew from ur too young>thats too expensive buy them urself so ill get fake ones...tch
i do like having my nails done and painted but those never lasted more than a day :( so maybe this is the perfect solution



i have 3 packages with bunches of stuff coming between the 21st and the 28 cccc: including the nails
but more importantly...lingerie and knives
went on a walk on the beach. beautiful harvest. reminded me to make the seashells webpage